Christmas and all the joys of the season

It's been a crazy couple weeks, lots going on, lots of decisions to have to make. I have not made it through a single day without crying at least once, but it's usually more. We are bringing my mom home to our house on hospice today. I'm scared. I'm overwhelmed and nervous about this will affect our lives. I feel selfish for that, but it's a reality I have to think of. She's a strong woman so I can't help but think she'll last quite a few months, but yet, she's been so weak and has had no appetite, and without food and water your body can't go on long. I just wish I could predict the future and plan accordingly. We've planned on going to WA for Christmas. I'm looking forward to it, but am terrified at the same time. We need the break, Derek needs to see his family right now, but I am so worried that I might be making the wrong decision, that something may happen when we're gone. Who knows. Guess we're just going to take it one day at a time.
We put up our Christmas tree and got some decorations going, and we welcomed the holiday season with our annual Disneyland holiday trip. It was good fun, getting older 7 hour days at Disneyland are way too long! But we stuck it out and watched the fireworks and I cried as White Christmas started playing while California snow fell on heads. That song just gives me chills. Something about that rendition just gets me. That's been us. Looking forward to what our lives hold in store for us.